would it matter at all?

I'm always assuming the worst
But you're going on none the less
And there's nothing to cushion your heart
led fall
Letters from further away
Keep pulling me close to home
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs
 
And I know that you hope for
Longer goodbyes
Embracing for forever
And falling in your eyes
In your eyes
Your eyes
 
Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
Breath deeply from this envelope, it smells like you
And I can't be without that scent, it's filling me
With all you mean to me
To me
 
Continually failing these trials
But you stand by me none the less
And you won't let me sink though I'm begging you
I'm begging you
 
Phone calls from further away
And messages on my machine
But I don't ever tell you this distance seems terrible
 
There's no need to test my heart
With useless space
These roads go on forever
There'll always be a place
For you, in my heart
 
So I'll hit the pavement, it's gotta be better then waiting
And pushing you far away cause I'm scared
So I'll take my chances and head on my way up there
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten

And hearing your voice, it’s like sweet suicide inside my mind. You’re the trigger in my head, in my heart.

http://www.youtube.com/user/0AdRiaNleE0#p/u/4/G5Qel4342PA
 
...it's funny how it's been over a year and I still hurt whenever I hear that.....
 
"But I
lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend
and I was gawky and she was
Gorgeous
and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly
fascinating.'

well...I hate my computer..stupid thing shut down last night while I was making a set and it was kinda good -_- whatever...tomorrow's my moms birthday!! XD yayy that'll be fun haha. so...yeah

Start this off with, who do you like?
hahaha thats sort of a long story that I don't want to get into

And your name is?
sarah
 
Everybody has a bestfriend, who's yours?
I have many people I consider my best friend...too many to name, so I won't
 
What are you listening to now?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIulZ0Vw2z8
 
What are your plans for tomorrow?
umm...tomorrow's thursday...so school then home...I think thats it
 
Do you like flowers?
sure
 
Did you enjoy your day?
no
 
Do you love anybody?
..........yeah. yeah I think I do
 
Do you drink a lot of water?
nope

Where did you get your last bruise from?
I ran into a chair and bruised my arm
 
How do you feel about girls/guys smoking?
don't care if it doesn't affect me
 
Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yes
 
Were you happy when you woke up today?
if I recall correctly, fuck no
 
What kind of mood are you in today?
I've been sort of bipolar today. its weird.
 
What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
looked at my clock to see if I could sleep more
 
What were you doing at 8 this morning?
I'm pretty sure I was going to homeroom
 
How late did you stay up last night and why?
umm...I was up until like 11:30 for reasons that are no ones buisness
 
Do you miss anyone?
yes
 
Are you mad at anyone right now?
umm...not mad, just confused on how I should feel so I'm acting mad........but I'm not. I don't get it.
 
Who means the most to you in your life right now?
...my friends I guess. They're really important to me.
 
Do you put a lot of smiley faces when your on the computer?
I don't use smiley faces, but I use other expressions
 
Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?
depends on the movie

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 10 days?
what like a hug? if it is a hug, then yes
 
Where did you get the top you're wearing?
I honestly don't know
 
Ever been lied to by someone you thought would never lie to you?
yup...
 
How are you feeling right now?
like I said, madly bispolar today, but right now I'm sort of anxious
 
What are you craving right now?
this'll sound weird...but I really want to laugh. Like laugh with my friends...but they aren't here so I can't
 
Are you hiding something from someone close to you?
yup. I've been hiding everything from everyone. Well mostly.
 
Is there something you want to tell someone but can't?
YES
 
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
umm I think I feel asleep during the car ride from my grandparents house to mine
 
Do you ever think about someone and start crying?
Not in public, but yeah sometimes
 
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yes
 
What are you currently doing besides this?
listening to music
 
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
no
 
Last person who told you they loved you, did they mean it?
I'm not sure. I guess?
 
Does anybody hate you?
maybe? I don't know. Probably

Did anyone yell at you today?
yes
 
Has any one said they love you today?
No

What color are your eyes?
brown -_-
 
Who's hoodie did you wear last?
My own
 

well that was boring. Whatever. So...yeah. Flyleaf is awesome ^-^

Screaming Infidelities -- Dashboard Confessional
 
this song...is amazing. Scratch that, the whole band is amazing. Dashboard Confessional = GOOD MUSIC

umm....this could've been better but I couldn't add anymore -_- so whatever. uhh I don't want to go to scool. shit, well I have to anyways. so yeah I'm gonna leave now...

umm...lots of shit is going on right now >.< definitely not fun. Hope there's no more yelling today =/ going to school now, bye

That guy, that guy right up there...yeah I love that guy. He's my idol ^-^ haha and he's insanely hot, which is fricking amazing. so...yeah. felt the need to share.

http://www.youtube.com/user/mydearjuliet#p/u/52/P1CBAL2JZnA
 
can't stop crying......